I might have to get serious!

I may have to actually spell check, grammer check, and pay attention to the possible crowd that may read my random rants. I received a phone call from a reporter yesterday, who asked if I blogged. Reluctantly, I said yes, and gave him the address. The hestitation in providing him with the address was that he was going to post it for public use. I realized quickly, that well, let’s be honest…I’m quirky. Some might even say weird, and the majority say funny. I guess I do look in the mirror and laugh.

I’m one to live by the moment. I live on the cusp and learned to laugh at my shortcomings vs. letting others know what gets me ;).

I know I have big lips.
I know my rear end is larger than normal.
I know my thighs are abnormally large compared to my calves.
I know my head is physically large.

Have you ever seen the movie, “Cars”? If you have, you undoubtedly remember the Tow Truck, Mater whose voice is Larry the Cable Guys. During the flick, Mater says, “She likes me for my body”.

I can relate to that!

Truthfully, I’m a hopeless romantic at heart, and am truly a Teddy Bear.

Isn’t that a song by Tom Petty?

 It is a long road of chasing down dreams right? I just caught up with one, and yet it doesn’t feel what I imagined it would.

It was so hard to see my two compatriots who have ridden in hardships and trials as myself not have their dreams come true. The stress and emotion to come down to the final four, but being almost family by the time the decision was due, was heart wretching.

I lost weeks of sleep. WEEKS. End of Philly through, well two days ago. I was so nervous because I realised what I was about to do. I had to ride against my brothers for 1 spot, then I had to selfishly pray for the 2nd spot under coaches selection.

Oh, wait, maybe that’s why it doesn’t feel right, I feel guilty because we are all that close! The trials were stupid, it was who was the fittest for an individual 3 km time trial at that time of year. It didn’t depict who was the best team for the job, it just depicted who was the fastest rider over 3 km at that particular time. It gave those with the decision making ability an easier means of saying, “we had our trials, this was your final chance”. Okay, fair enough, it was so close that it came down to that point, and we needed a deciding factor, but it was one of the most stressful times of my life.

While I’m confident in the team going, that we can be competitive for a medal or more, it doesn’t change my feelings for the other two warriors. You are both in my heart and will always be considered family.

Unfortuanately, i’m in Italy using a crappy computer in the lobby and some crazy chick is now whining that she needs to use the computer, so I should be a gentleman and let her use it.

 She is being rude…

For all those times I treated you poorly.

- all the times I missed the gatherings.

- all the hours I spent in the saddle, and away from those who loved.

- the years that have passed with me chasing a passion,leaving yours behind.

- the moments I said I’d call and forget.

- …… 

This is for the selfishness I paid such a high cost for, but gained a moment in a life’s dream.